12 Weeks

I'm going blindly into this whole thing called pregnancy.  I know everyone that has been pregnant is in the exact same boat, but I'm just missing some things.
Mum.

Oh god, I miss her so much, more and more every day, especially now that I'm going to be a mom myself.  It's one thing to not have my mother, but to not have my Grammy either is what's even worse.  I just want to ask a million questions and just have that maternal advice that some people are priviledged to receive from their moms.  Oh mom, why?  Of all the milestones I've had to complete without you, this is the one that scares/scared me the most and I'm just so lost.  I need you so much.  I'm so scared, mum.

I'm not quite showing yet, but I feel like my waist is definitely thicker and less defined.  My pants are getting tighter and more uncomfortable. Luckily I haven't had the "normal" puking/morning sickness.  Week 6 had some really awful stomach aches, but no throwing up.  I've just been extremely beat and tired. Almost like when I was running the long runs on Saturdays (which, I completely miss, by the way).